2013 New Year

Prompted by a letter from the Sunflower group and some other sources.

I read through the resolutions I've made at the start of the year, 2012. Though it was made under different circumstances, in different areas & aspects of my life then, the resolutions were mostly, if not all, similar. 

"I want to improve on blah blah blah..", "I wanna achieve blah blah blah milestone", and the usual kinship/friendship/worldpeace resolutions wishes many would have.

Glad to say, I certainly did fulfil certain resolutions.

But seriously, how boring those resolutions are.

For instance, if you had wanted to be a kinder/warm/helpful/etc person, and true enough, you started making efforts to help people around, brighten up people's day and such. So what? You're a happier person by doing these? Or are you just making efforts to conform to the social norm. To please the crowd. To be somewhere above when measured against the society benchmark.

(Then again, what is The Benchmark right?)

Haven't been exactly excited to fulfil my resolutions for 2012.

Even though more often than not, people do not even actualise their resolutions.

I think I need to set better more suitable ones this year.

None of them to do with the society, and heck trying to be a 'good person' kind. Not to be influenced by anyone else. Not for anyone.

On a side note, please pardon me if you're thinking that this is such an emo post!
The sudden lost of self-identity must be part of quarter-life crisis (if i do live til 100 haha). So, excuse me :(


Or, causing it might be the major changes in my work environment for the past 1.5 years.
Might be health reasons, I'm getting older & weaker, boo.
Perhaps, growing up also makes me realise that the world is actually more warped than expected. Everyone's kinda lost and becoming much more colder.
I can't find the very much appreciated warmth (as it had seemed) anymore.
Losing faith and confidence in various areas :/
I will need to find it back.

Nevertheless, a huge huge thanks to friends, and all those who had been there in some way or another whenever I'm down.
It had really meant the world to me even though I might not have portrayed it then. You guys know how emotionless/stoned I look lah normally. Your words/smses/calls/ice-cream talks had been a great deal, not only at that moment, but whenever I think back or need to pick myself up from similar shit.
To my family who annoys me sometimes, but still love me and took care of me regardless.
To you, for being there and giving me love & support & courage <3

I need to go on a soul searching journey.

To understand life more deeply.
To find myself this year.

To believe in the many things I do.
With my love ones around, I know I can do it soon :)

Cheers to a new year :)



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No countdown parties for me FYI.
This is a scheduled post, and I'm most probably gonna work til near midnight.. Go home & have new year's midnight gongyo with my family <3
Those who are having countdowns, enjoy yourselves! :)

Fame

Baby you look at me

And tell me what you see.

You ain't seen the best of me yet

Give me time, I'll make you forget the rest.

Baby I'll return

Too much is not enougha

I can ride your heart till it breaks

Ooh, I got what it takes

Remember my name (Fame)

I'm gonna live forever

I'm gonna learn how to fly (High)

I feel it coming together

People will see me and cry (Fame)

I'm gonna make it to heaven

Light up the sky like a flame (Fame)

I'm gonna live forever

Baby, remember my name

...

Remember my name (Fame)

I'm gonna live forever

I'm gonna learn how to fly (High)

I feel it coming together

People will see me and cry (Fame)

I'm gonna make it to heaven

Light up the sky like a flame (Fame)

I'm gonna live forever

Baby, remember my name

Quotes, thoughts.

"Love is hard work. It starts off easy and carefree until reality sets in. Then there you find that there are just two people who are alike in some ways, yet different in others. Love is finding ways to interact with each other and love in spite of differences. Love is work."


"Love comes respect, trust, honesty, and also forgiveness."

"Love means focusing on others' strengths, not weaknesses. The more you get to know someone, the easier it can be to pick on their weaknesses and forget about the strengths you loved so much in the first place. Just look around at couples you know. How many of them are bringing each other up, focusing on one another's strengths? How many of them are picking up on the negative qualities and focusing on those instead? One of the greatest things I've learned about true love is that is shrouded in positivity. Focus on what you love about them, not on what you don't. Negativity is bad news, and there is no place for it when it comes to love."
 

"There's nothing like knowing that someone believes in you 100%."

"Our actions always affect others; choose them wisely. There are times when we had been selfish and haven't stopped to think about the consequences of our actions. One may think, "Hey, I gotta live my life!" and don't really care what might happen if someone didn't like his choices. But what we choose to do can have a significant impact on the people who love us and, as a result, we must consider them when you make choices. Love has a way of teaching us that what we do matters not only to us, but also (and sometimes more importantly) to those who love us."


"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass; it's about learning to dance in the rain."

Sick~

Had one of the worst flu I've suffered this year.
And since troubles come in doubles, I had like twice the amount of deadlines at the beginning of this week. Couldn't even rest properly :(

Now it's left with slight cough, and a blocked nose :( Anyone knows how to clear blocked nose quickly? I've tried the medicines, doesn't work on me.

Chanced upon this while googling, and it seems to help for a while. Like half a min?

How to clear a blocked nose?
http://howtoclearablockednose.pen.io/

"Did you know your body has a natural mechanism for clearing your nose. Push your tongue against the top of your mouth and place a finger between your eyebrows and apply pressure. Hold it for about 20 seconds and your sinuses will begin to drain"

Ikea / Beautiful photos

Went to Ikea recently cos snabb (what a mouthful) wanted to erm, revamp his living room, with a study corner.





Tired, as usual.





Must-have meatballs! :p

This shelf is super love! ♥
I want for my house in future! :)

Anyway, I was attracted to the huge hanging photos/pictures more than anything else.

There were the usual abstract art/floral stuffs. But i kinda prefer the real photos.

A few we saw, similar to the ones below (*credits to google images)

Of cos, it is nothing much viewing a photo like this from a laptop screen.

But when it's magnified and standing huge in front of you, it's a totally different feeling.

Maybe it's just me.

It's almost intimidating viewing a city from this angle, yet at the same time it gives a sense of freedom. Freedom from fear and anxiety. A soothing feeling found within oneself.

Okay, that's if you can manage not to think about Gotham city in the meanwhile.

Anyway city views remind us of work :/

So in the end, the best of the photos was agreed to be this.

Composed. Unruffled. Tranquilizing.

I would like it still the same during sunset!

Now. If only my house has empty space for one. 

Maroon 5 — Payphone

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone

Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember

The people we used to be

It's even harder to picture

That you're not here next to me

You say it's too late to make it

But is it too late to try?

And in our time that you wasted

All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights

You turned out the lights

Now I'm paralyzed

Still stuck in that time when we called it love

But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone

Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairytales are full of shit

One more stupid love song I'll be sick

You turned your back on tomorrow

Cause you forgot yesterday

I gave you my love to borrow

But you just gave it away

You can't expect me to be fine

I don't expect you to care

I know I've said it before

But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights

You turned out the lights

Now I'm paralyzed

Still stuck in that time when we called it love

But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone

Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairytales are full of shit

One more stupid love song I'll be sick

Now I'm at a payphone...

[Wiz Khalifa]

Man fuck that shit

I'll be out spending all this money while you sitting round

Wondering why it wasn't you who came up from nothing

Made it from the bottom

Now when you see me I'm stunning

And all of my cars start with the push up a button

Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it

Switched the number to my phone

So you never could call it

Don't need my name on my show

You can tell it I'm ballin'

Swish, what a shame could have got picked

Had a really good game but you missed your last shot

So you talk about who you see at the top

Or what you could've saw

But sad to say it's over for her

Phantom pull up valet open doors

Wish I'd go away, got what you was looking for

Now It's me who they want

So you can go take that little piece of shit with you

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone

Baby it's all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairytales are full of shit

One more stupid love song I'll be sick

Now I'm at a payphone...

There was a choice, and I chose this.

It's been a tough month. Esp the past one week.
And the road ahead is gonna be even more difficult.

I'm not sure if I'd made the right moves. But then again, nobody knows. Nobody will ever too.
All I can do now is to grit my teeth and make the best out of it. Then, there's nothing to blame. Or at most, a lesson learnt.

My new laptop, Sony Vaio!

Remember how I was raving about the pink Sony Vaio here?I finally got my hand on one! :)See the lovely shade it comes in?




 
Colour is true to the pic above :)


I'm not very sure about specs and stuffs.Here's a pic of the details :)







 
 
Loving it loads! <3

Prosecutor Princess

One of my favourite korean drama!

A video i can't help but kept watching!

And of cos, sharing with you, my favourite korean actor to date!

Park Shin Hoo!

Been noticing him ever since i got to know him in one k drama i watched.

Iljimae~

He was ALWAYS frowning then, in that show.

But he has actually such a nice smile!!

melts~

And here's a lil' spoiler for prosecutor princess ending :x

<3